…But I Don’t Feel Like It

I was giving God the silent treatment today. The Big Man seemed to be letting the world  push all my buttons and I was over it. OVER IT. I wasn’t about to read my Bible, say any prayers, listen to Christian music, and I absolutely wasn’t going to Bible study. I was making a point, darn it!

And I made it most of the day…until 7(pm) rolled around. I sighed as I pulled in to the church parking lot, balled my fists during the first song, rolled my eyes and clinched my jaw at each “Praise Jesus!” (Seriously, guys, can’t understate how “over it” I was.)

I don’t know what got me in the door but I did it. And let me tell you this: I walked out the door a renewed person – not quite smiling, but no longer gnashing my teeth. Sure, the study was good, but it wasn’t that good.  Sure, the pastor is convincing, but he isn’t that convincing. [Seriously, I was waaaay over it.] It was something much more compelling than the songs and the sermon that changed my sour mood.  I have to believe that the power of love is what softened my heart. Yes, Gods love to me, but also my love to Him.

How amazed I am that being loving to God – simply by giving Him the time of day – completely changed my outlook and mood! And isn’t that true with all relationships? Things are likely to go more smoothly when we act in love. People aren’t always as easy to love on as God is [understatement of the century]. Even so, no matter the situation, no matter the outcome, you will never regret displaying love – even when you don’t feel like it.

Displaying love even when you don’t feel loving has the power to change the circumstances.

[Easier said than done, Kaity.] Trust a sister when she says she knows; I’m absolutely not great at this. Big Brother Jesus has shown me a different way but it is still a fairly new concept to me. I can’t recall every time I’ve reacted in hate/anger/disappointment/etc – because WOAH there are so many! I can tell you about a few times that I’ve reacted in love – because WOAH it was worth it! The humility it takes to respond in love, above all other emotions, is worth it. So worth it.